Saturday, August 23, 2008
hi...
i think im like addicted to my psp now.. its like.. every bit of free time i have.. ill be playing..hahas...rox man..at least it keeps me occupied so i dun have to constantly look for things to occupy me and keep my mind off things.. life is still the same i guess.. waiting for my hair to grow is driving me nuts...i need some hair growth accelerator.. besides dat everythin is like quite routine la.. especially the weekdays.. almost as if there is no excitement.. but i guess NS is like dat la...1 yr 10 months.. ppl might say its very fast.. but when ur in it.. and experiencing it.. the time is jus crawling man... im left with 18 months.. its a long time in my opinion... and yes.. ive like gotten almost the best thing most ppl hope for...BUT.. its still very sian.. i treasure my freedom man...i dun like to be confined to so many boundaries...but then again.. what choice do i have huh...
anyway.. i guess striving for certain things is and probably will get me nowhere.. i really wanna surrender things to God fully.. and jus patiently wait for his timing.. but at times it jus kills me..cos i feel that im not wired up to be patiently waiting for certain things. i can be patient when it come to some things.. but for others i cant.. im jus someone who likes to constantly see progression in my life.. so i dun like things to be stagnant.. but the thing is.. relationships are never stagnant.. its either improving or deproving.. and the only way to improve ur relationships is to communicate.. if not well.. it jus deteriorates.. well as far as im concerned it jus sux when there is no progression.. but then again.. what can i do.. alot of things are out of my hand.. even if i make an effort..the result isnt based solely on my effort.. its so frustrating to be in the dark.. if only i could read ppls minds.. i would live in alot more peace..i need a clear picture.. but whether ill get it or not is another qn... sigh...
if that was a msg for me... make it clearer ya.. i wanna know for sure...
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