Deebs' Blog;

Sunday, August 17, 2008

hey... if u were actually looking forward to a theory.. sorry to disappoint you.. i havent written one yet.. ive jus been kinda busy with my new fren.. my psp... lolz.. i love my psp la.. its red which is the nicest colour out of all the psps in my opinion la.. i was hoping for a dark purple one.. but got no such colour.. oh well my psp at least keeps me occupied when im bored la.. yea.. fun la.. i dun have to like keep borrowing other ppls psp and play.. now ive got my own one.. so i can play anytime i want..

ok so u might be wondering.. since i dun have a theory ready.. how come im blogging?.. since my frequency of blogging is beyond pathetic..i think this is the first time i have 2 posts within a week.. in like dunno how long la.. its jus that ive been kinda hit by a wave of something..lol.. i really dunno how to explain it la.. nostalgia mayb.. since ,as i said in my last post, ive got so much time to reflect.. alot of thoughts and possibilities have been flooding my mind.. sumhow i almost like yearn for certain things to be like the way they were in the past..its actually in line with my last post.. jus like an elaboration.. its like ever since ive realised that things can be done the right way.. without offending anyone or doing things wrongly... i wanna try things out that way.. but as ive said.. effort on my part alone isnt enough.. if u end something.. u've gotta start it again... i know with my family and the freedom i have.. alot of things are easier for me.. but its like.. if u want something..u got to be willing to make an effort to do certain things in order to get it rite.. as long as u follow the right path.. nobody can fault you rite.. i guess its like easy to explain all this in so called theoretical terms.. to actually do it could be very different.. but i cant really think of any other way for this situation.. ive been fighting certain things for months now.. NS helped me get my mind of some things.. but now that its isnt keeping me so busy anymore.. my mind jus goes back again...it can be really frustrating at times.. but all i can do is trust god that everything is according to his plan... and surrender this area of my life to him.. i jus feel that we dont have to like in like extremes.. at one point the interaction lvl is up there.. and den its jus goes rock bottom.. why does it always have to sway to the extremes.. its impt to find the balance.. i think i know what the balance is.. but if nobody tries.. it will jus remain the same.. there is no use fighting it... all u get is frustration.. ive got some experience.. trust me..

i like spunk...

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