Deebs' Blog;

Monday, March 31, 2008

Hi...

i do realise that this is like my 3rd post in the last 10 days.. and considering my recent blogging record..its a miracle! okay dat reminds me of an easter musical line..rite anyway...hahas... its like 7 days before i disappear... okay la i dun really think ill disappear for long la.. but still.. i will for a while at least.. therefore..im in the midst of planning the 'Bye Bye Deeben' Dinner. its a dinner organised by me..for me..lolz...sounds so self centered..hahas no la.. i jus wanna have a dinner with frens before i go in..yea..and i haven really invited anyone..i will tmr la.. and i wont be inviting everyone la. probably jus closer church frens.. actually i wanted it on sat la.. but my family is having one for me on sat..so yea..

anyway..i jus feel like im at some major crossroad in my life.. its a big transitional phase...Police.. my unknown course for uni..among other things.. but i can really see God's hand in my life.. i feel that he is making my path straight like wad pastor said on sun.. although my obedience and acceptance of His moral and providential will are not 100%... im making my best effort..and while i fail at times..he still come through for me..thanks to his mercy and grace..and i think once my uni results come out.. the straight path will jus be so clear to me..and im grateful for that.. even in a certain situation which i have struggled with for a while. i know wads the exact right thing to do..but i jus find it difficult..cos my emotions clash with it and all..but sumhow today it was settled..jus like dat.. and i dun feel uneasy or anythin..i guess God jus prepared me for it.. and i kinda feel more relaxed now..no need to struggle with it anymore..i feel so surrendered to God's will now.. jus let wad happens happen.. as long as i obey and stay close to him..things will turn out for the best..okay this sounds kinda preachy? lolz.. oh well..

anyway im gonna enhoy my last week out.. and id say im prepared to go in la.. im not like resisting it mentally or sumthing... i know it has to happen and its part of my life..let it happen and finish..den life goes on..

[Deebs]

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