Saturday, January 12, 2008
heyz...
6 days to my bday...sumhow this year.. my anticipation for my bday isnt as much as previous years.. its not cos i think im getting old or sumthin.. i actually do wanna reach 21 asap... so the earlier i hit 19 the bttr... i'm jus kinda occupied with other things.. the irony is.. im actually very free..cos i got nth to do till i book into ns on 8th april.. but i feel occupied la.. i have found sum things to do..so that my time is bttr spent than just playing games.. there is quite a few things i wanna do.. but most of them require money.. which i dun have alot of at the moment... i still haven collect my $200 progress award.. but den again im gonna spend it all on my new mp3.. so it will all just disappear...oh well.. mayb more job opportunities will come up... but well.. back to reality...
sumhow i jus feel restrained while waiting for my A level results.. since it kinda determines alot of things in my future.. i cant really plan or anythin till i see it.. and well im the kinda person who really plans ahead alot... years ahead in fact.. but in this aspect..there isnt much i can do... most of me is anticipating my results.. but there is still a part that is reluctant..cos u never know how u have done la.. u can study like crap and be one of the top student in ur class or wadeva.. and u can still screw up... dats the scary part..u dun even get to see ur paper.. or know how close u are to the next grade. its all a mystery... so yea its really like fear of the unknown... but wad to do...
anyway tmr is my second sis 21st bday party.. and this time round i wont really know anybody there.. except my relatives la i guess.. but den again.. think ill be bored la..but oh well.. its for my sis.. so its ok...its gonna be a busy weekend la.. sunday alot of things to do also..
i hear the sound of my own breathing... it makes me miss you more...
[Deebs]
[Deebs - 7]
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