Wednesday, August 15, 2007
heyz..
hope my last post din plunge anyone into depression..anyway i can faintly see some light at the end of the tunnel now.. been thinking about everythin dat has been bothering me these few days..and im figuring things out..yea..learning new things as well.. they way ppl behave...their attitude towards certain things and their level of maturity... sometimes i compare two ppl of the same age.. and these elements are drastically different...does maturity come with age? largely debatable..to some it does i guess.. to others it doesnt...sometimes things are just so complex..ppl...dun let ur past ill feeling towards certain ppl cloud ur judgement of them..sumtimes they way these ppl tok makes it so obvious..so insensitive to the surroundings and how others will feel..they subtly enjoy the pain others are feeling? i dunno.. its possible rite.. cos ppl can put up the facade of having forgiven sumone.. but in actual fact those ill feeling remain.. deep in the soul.. and start to resurface now..and i find myself is such a fix.. i got to juggle my feelings..frenship and all..i cannot be underhanded or do things for my own benefit..cos its jus wrong.. i got to be impartial and give a fair reflection.. and let god's will take place..no use trying to manipulate and try to make things advantageous for me as god can jus mess it all up..no matter how much preparation i put in...i forsee the next few months till my As to be the most testing period of my life.. where alot of things are tested..my values..my discipline..my attitude..my spirituality..my relationships and my physical wellbeing.. in the beginning of this yr.. i felt that 2007 could be my best yr so far.. but that very idea is being constantly challenged..but i still believe its possible... there is always a rainbow after the rain.. im just waiting for the rainbow now..
on a brighter note.. my leg is healing.. and FAST!
[Deebs]
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