im indulging in marshmallows now..not cos im happy..but cos i need sumthing sweet in my life now..lolz.. rite im not supposed to laugh today.. cos its a solemn day... a day where things happened that cause me to think about wad im doing now.. and the decisions im making now.. about whether im ready for certain things.. and about the nature of the people around me.. u know... sch is a place where at times.. u can be so happy with ur frens..joking laughing...playing. but it is a place consisting of alot of evil as well... ppl lie..steal..cheat..manipulate..bitch..backstab.fight..argue..and all this leads to depression and sadness and crying..people cannot resolve issues..problems..leading to worse problems... im not saying im not guilty of some of those things...ive definitely bitched argued and lied in sch... but its really amazing..the extent ppl can go to.. how insensitive they can be..how ruthless and manipulative.. how sex crazy they some ppl are.. jus wanna get in relationships so they can screw the girl.. den they screw up sumhow.. and end up putting up this facade to manipulate.. i really pity all the victims of this.. some of them..dont realise it.. some do..but they still get manipulated...for various reasons... the what goes around come around concept came back to my head on the way home... its like sumtimes u think about what happens..and u can like piece the actions..and the consequences..although im in no position to judge..it seems logical in a way..of cos i could be wrong.. i could be wrong in alot of things im saying now.. but den again.. i could be rite..who knows eh.. those who are involved perhaps.. friends can screw u up..some should be given oscars for the facades that they put up...before bitching about ppl behind their back. the world is twisted. don't u agree.. alot of my opinions are being redefined. the blessings of sum ppl..can turn out to be a curse for them...it can bring the harm.. their nature..character..behaviour..although it is right..can bring the wrong things/ppl... reminds me of those who ask.. why do those who do evil always seem to get away with wad they do.. and those who are good..genuine and deserve more..seem to lose out..seem to get hurt..seem to be disillusioned... the world isnt fair rite? or is it? yea ive learnt in church the reason why good ppl suffer..and the fact that those who are bad will eventually be led to the consequences... i believe it totally..i know i should not probably be feeling this way...but i cant wait for the consequences to befall those who seem to get away with their crap.. i shouldnt judge i know.. but whether i feel that things eventually get justified or not is not the issue.. i jus wanna follow the right way to ensure i dun unknowingly join the bunch dat does evil...
okay i dun know wad kinda post this is..but today was disturbing..really.. i see ppl who are idiots..walking around smiling..cos everythin is fine with them..but those who are good.. seem down..and not exactly happy..like me for example.. and yes i do beleive that im a good boy.. all i can do is remain centred on god..keep my priorities straight and let god's will take its course..
[Deebs]
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5:04 pm
`deebs
`18 jan 89
`25 yrs old
`ex victorian
`ex innovian
`ex NTU
`man utd rules
