firstly id like to say that if u are a regular reader of my blog..and u see post after post dats seems to give the impression dat im wallowing in a state of depression.. well im not.. i am going through one of the tougher periods in my life yes..but im not depressed or extremely sad.. i can assure u dat.. ive been through and survived similar things before.. so i know ill make it through...ok now dat this is established..i shall get on to the post proper..
i cant help but think dat sum ppl give me mixed signals.. like err nice at times den not so nice at other times..sometimes make it seems like they wanna tok more.. den at other times seem like they jus wanna cut things off..i dunno la.. im beginning to pity myself.. im sorry if it makes me seem really pathetic..but oh well.. only i would understand my situation..cos it complex..actually i dun blame them la..cos would understand if they think otherwise to wad i would want them to think..cos as i said its a complex situation..but of cos in my heart i wish it turned out bttr..or things moved faster..or they would understand wads going on..but i guess its too much to expect rite.. u know ive always considered myself a very optimistic person...in like everythin.. but today i realised..dats im pessimistic when it comes to one thing..i know im super laggy concerning this..but ya..i realised it today..when sumthing small doesnt happen the way i want it to..i start thinking dat everythin is going wrong. i wish its not la.. but i cant help but think dat way.. mayb im insecure...lol..but really..i should be more optimistic la ya..im sure there is a reason for it.. i guess i jus envision things too far ahead..like i said before..i jus go ahead of myself.. try to advance ahead of a pace that is safe for me..im jus too pushy? too kan chiong? i want things to go at the speed dat i want..with no consideration for other factors? i dunno man.. i really dun...God pls give me peace..and help me figure out wads going on.. like u always do.. thanks..
do you know? do you even suspect? does it make u happy? or does it make u wanna stop toking to me?
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`deebs
`18 jan 89
`25 yrs old
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`ex NTU
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