Wednesday, August 01, 2007
hello..
today hasnt been as good as i would haf wanted it to be...it was really frustrating to say the least...i found out dat i have like two FATAL FLAWS... if u are a lit student u will know the real meaning of that..im not gonna like say it la..but well..these two things have caused me more bad den gd over the years.. but the thing is..i find that im jus wired up that way.. there are certain things i know i have a good chance of achieving..but..is there a need for it...argh.. i think this past 2 weeks have been really bad.. possibly even the worst 2 weeks of my year..lol..i really dunno how to express my self and my thoughts at this moment.. on top of the bad things that happened out of my control.. i think i might have brought one more bad thing upon myself due to my own actions/words. i think i must spend more time thinking..i make too many rash decisions..i pursue my decisions too fast.. i think im so pro dat things wont go wrong.. and dat everythin will work out.. despite knowing that in my past experiences this particular thing nvr worked out.. but jus becos i changed the location and got rid of certain hindering factors doesnt mean it will work.. cos more stupid things come up... u know sumtimes u find ppl who are like so damn nice..angels..but..its only a matter of time..before the ugly side comes out... it might not be as ugly as other ppl's ugly side.. but it will surface..and the shortcomings of these ppl will surface.. and when u combine it with your own shortcomings.. the pieces just wont fit... haiz..i hate it when this happens..i get into things..only to get out a few days laters..and ppl around me will think im sum kinda fickle ass who cant be decisive...frustration is boiling over..
okay now dat all the negatives are over.. lets see if i can find some positives in my life now.. things to be happy about..A levels is coming nearer.. so why am i happy about it.. cos the closer i get to it.. the faster its gonna end.. how consoling eh..church today was good.. it reinforces my understanding of wad was preached..and is kinda apt for my situation now? lolz.. and finally i look forward to my weekend..i got soccer..lunch with frens and movie on sat.. plus soccer and watching man u kick chelsea's ass on sun.. thinking about it cheers me up.. and yes.. the premiership is starting again.. more joy and well..stress? hahs.. sumhow after describing my weekend.. i dun sound like sumone sitting for As this yr.. its okay i promise myself.. after nat day hols.. my sats will be spent at home.. except for emergencies..lolz.. i hope i din depress anybody with my post..hahas.and dun read into it too much ya..bye!
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