Deebs' Blog;

Monday, June 11, 2007

hi...

its midway through the june hols..my last ever june hols.. since im sure the holiday system for uni.. is different.. so yea.. lolz..well dats not really impt rite.. i guess half a year has really flown by..the second half is gonna be worse im sure..in terms of having to study and all la.. well i jus got to suffer for a few more months den im done.. so yea..guess dats wad keep me going..although im totally sick of it..and thats just the beginning of things dats im getting sick off.. but im a patient person..ill get through it.. its the goal dats the motivation..not only for my studies but well.. personal stuff as well..

anyway..to say dat church camp was good would be an understatement..i enjoyed it loads..jus felt like it ended way way too fast..think ive changed quite abit..but its more internal change..so yea..u might not notice a difference in me dat much..well ive been able to keep it up so far.. the things i learnt and all.. but its been draining these past few days..ive been trying hard.. really hard..but mayb i jus cannot meet the benchmark eh..a benchmark dat i myself set.. so wad.. im become softer hmm...cant be the way i was last time... well of cos i cant..cos last time i wasnt doing alot of things the right way..so im jus not cut out to fit in perhaps..on one side i got to hear things that i would not exactly consider motivational towards my efforts.. more like warnings against wad im doing..but i know wad im doing and why im doing it..but i dun see the fruits.. abit to early mayb..but den again it seems like the tree is dying even before the fruits appear..so will the fruits ever appear.? lolz..and on the other side..i got to try and try and try..only to suddenly get pushed aside...so why am i still at it? dats a very good qn.. sumtimes i dun haf the answer.. like now..lolz..god help me...really.. i need it..lolz..

everyone seems to realise..except you..

[Deebs]

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