Deebs' Blog;

Sunday, April 15, 2007

hi..

rite so i know i have post in like over a month..and most ppl who used to come to this blog dun bother anymore cos they dun expect to see anythin new.. i mean i find jus blogging about wad u do during the day abit of a waste of time..lolz.. i mean there are ppl who will enjoy it.. but i think its lame..lolz..so anyway i decided to blog about u know..stuff that i think about and all.. not everythin la..but jus some of it.. rite so lets get started den..

life has been kinda regulated this yr... no major ups or downs except one up early in the yr which soon became normal again...i guess im jus too busy to get involved in the kinda things that i used to do that kinda creates sum unpredictability into your life..like getting closely involved with ppl.. i guess due to certain episodes of my life i wont be able to be as daring or committing as before..ive developed a certain cautiousness towards a group of ppl. dun wanna end up the same way again i guess.. even when certain things came up again this yr.. i almost fell rite in again... in fact i wanted to fall in again... i was waiting so long for it to happen.. and when it finally did and i wanted to seize the opportunity.. certain things came to light...BUT although i know that i should know better den to plunge into it again...i still wanted to...even now i feel that if things change i will plunge in.. its jus sumthin about it that pulls me no matter wad..but i have certain boundaries that i wont cross..only if those things are right will i pursue...wad i felt.. i dun feel it now..its like a completely different level...i yearn for that feeling again..but its nowhere to be found..the only place i know i can get it..is a place that i know i should not involve myself in..especially this yr.. i guess different ppl expect diff things..and i cant find a place with all that i expect...problem is i cannot pick and choose from different places and put it together..but THAT place was the best that i had..ever.. wish i could jus put the things i have with wad i had..put it together and get wad i want..but oh well.. lifes not like dat is it..

i jus wish i dun do to ppl wad was done to me

[Deebs]

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