ups and downs eh.. it can never be always up rite.. never.. well i understand.. its jus part of life.. sometimes u think u know ppl well...but i realise.. im learning everyday.. unpredictable.. u can never be prepared..never.. its scary but im fine with it.. there are things that override all this.. yea.. i dunno if u understand.. im being incoherent i know.. im jus abit shaken.. dats all..
sometimes i feel im caught in two minds.. to help or not..to explain or not... sometimes i feel like i do it all..as honestly and sincerely as i can and like a door is jus slammed in my face.. honestly whenever that happens something inside me jus shatters.. i cant help it... its jus like part of me.. but its alrite.. i know sometimes i overreact...im overly sensitive.. but that's jus me... and the way i am... ill jus learn as i go along... yup.. i dun wanna change the way i am..i jus cant seem to be able to change the way i look... cant seem to be able to put on weight..i try.. i really do.. but it jus doesnt happen.. and sometimes i jus get so frustrated.. but i thought mayb there is a reason for it.. i dun wanna act or suck up to be liked or accepted or wadeva... ill jus be myself and i know thats good enough for me.. if it isnt for others den i have nothing to say.. i dunno why i suddenly said this.. but its been something going through my mind for quite some time now.. yup im done.. =)
im impatient? AM I?
[Deebs - 7]
12:21 am
`deebs
`18 jan 89
`25 yrs old
`ex victorian
`ex innovian
`ex NTU
`man utd rules
