Sunday, September 25, 2005
hi..
well...this weekend is in contention for the award of 'LOUSIEST WEEKEND EVER'...so that shld give u the idea that isnt gonna be a happy post...so if u dun want further depression to ur already screwed up depressed lives...dun read on..
rite so i jus cannot help but feel betrayed..i was warned a long long time ago that im probably being used..but i refused to believe that..i trusted ppl...believed everythin they said..well u might say that it isnt very wise to believe everythin dat sumbody says...but i really really trusted that person..i spent so much time thinking about that person..in short i was crazy bout dat person..BUT...i guess..i was jus plain stupid and blind..i suspected it ages ago..but i wanted to trust the person..i tried so hard..was on the brink of giving up many times..but i din..due to several reasons...ppl keep telling me..."forget her"..."she isnt worth ur time"..so on..but i dun wanna believe dem..jus this week i scoffed at sumone who told me dat..BUT once again i was proven wrong..i really din want to reach the situation dat i am in now..i tried so hard to avoid a confrontation...but i jus feel that im getting played...manipulated..and ppl tell me dat..ppl dat i know i shld listen to...but i jus din wanna accept dat i had wasted 2 fucking yrs of my life..so yea..if u look at it properly..I am the victim here..not YOU..so today was the last straw la..i din haf to do anythin..u both jus proved it to me..so well..u both can jus spoil each others lives la ok..dun go around disturbing other ppl...i dun understand how ppl can go to church every sunday..and behave like they have to conscience..jus purely unbelievable..yea..i know i am making alot of assumptions..but i haf no choice..the situation is such..and the way u behave makes it seem dat way..no matter what u say..i dun think i can believe u anymore..everytime i turn...its u two...foreva..so yea...im done..this time i am really done...as much as it breaks my heart..i jus cannot stand it anymore...so ciao..mayb sumday..u both will change...sumday...
CHiLL~
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